Confession

I remember a movie quote
“Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in!”
I think its a line from a mob movie, something like The Godfather
But I couldnt remember, I never watch it
Although I did put it on my watchlist, along with other 500 movies that I would watch
Someday…

It is a very hopeful word isnt it?
It makes you believe that there are better things out there, better things ahead of you
But its not bad, its good
Hope is good
“Hope is a good thing. Maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies”
Thats the line from your favorite movie isnt it?
Your favorite movie is the number one best movies of all time

I know you. I know you too well.
I even know you well enough to know that you would just break my heart like the others

Its like that mob movie that I cant seem to remember the title
Just when I thought I was able to get up on my own feet, you swept me all over again

But Im here now, with the very same hope for every other else
Hoping that this time would be different
Hoping that this time it would end differently
How hope itself, that said to be the best of things, made me into one of my worst self

But didnt they warned me in the first place?
That cinema is just an escape…

11 January 2019, Friday
23.47
I was dreaming…